While we mostly hear people talking about so perfect lives and experiences, what about us? I somehow think there are fewer people.Most of my days, months and years are imperfect. I can only feel happy thinking of how unique each of those imperfect moments and experiences were.
During my childhood, I spent most time studying and participating in extra-curriculars. I was good at everything that I tried except for sports. I was good at essay writing, debates, singing, dancing and studies. things were clear. As I started growing up, Few friends went for studying an MBBS to become a doctor, few went abroad and I relied on my strong subjects maths and physics to pursue engineering. Things are fine. I was never asked on what I liked. I only think about what is right. Goals were clear, direction was clear, options are limited.
It is something like pursue your dreams and follow your heart. But how do I know what my dreams are and what my heart says. I feel fine and good with any career path and any option that I choose. How mediocre of me! I don’t feel heartful with most of the paths that I choose. I just feel fine and good. Why is heart connected to work dude! I cant imagine in my dream to get a job in a company and actually love it from heart. Where did I go wrongggg!!
At one end, I excel in every work I take up and feel fine, not great. At other end, I don’t feel none of them had anything to feel passionate about or feel heartful. I will give you an example. For example, doing a job with hefty pay or doing a business with decent or loads of money, what is the difference? The work essentially is the WORK! you have to put your blood and sweat to excel in anything. Nothing is more or nothing is less. But what matters for me? What is the direction that I should look for moving forward? Is it towards more and more money, better status and more things like car/home etc. Or should I head towards just relationships, more of having close circle, spend less, earn less, be more spiritual, not thrive 24*7 for money but focus on wellbeing and happiness? Okay, please don’t advise here!! Because, if I were looking for an advise or social opinion, the option is obvious to thrive for money and wealth.
So, here I am lost, wandering and not sure where I am headed and still running in some random direction which I don’t know whether correct or wrong. That’s it for the article and confusion.
Voice of Heart 